Come Back To Me

05/21/2019 

It's 2 in the morning, and i'm wondering how better my life was ten or so years ago. It's been awhile since the era of Hatena; causing such thrilling yet questionable moments in a teenager's life.

I remember the day that my Nintendo DSi became a present to me on the day of Christmas circa 2009. Then the curiousity began amongst the Hatena aspect of the gaming device... Who knew that not only "artistic drawing" could become amusing once anyone drew up the title of "chatrooms" in squiggly lines and color shades of black, red, and blue.

Anyone and Everyone was avaliable to meet and get to knowing, and I don't remember exactly how it happened.. But you came into my life and for some reason, we kept seeing eachother in the most randomest of chatrooms and drawings.

I was more connected to what Hatena called, "Fans" in the personal style of ~quizes, music video pictures, amongst popular favorites for chatting~ While you were amongst those who actually used Hatena for the real purpose of drawing and well, comic strips and you know.. We both know you drew really good (I hope you're still into doing what I knew you best as)

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No one these days of the era of Hatena ever returned, the catergory that created a dynamic of the Nintendo DSi trend was coming to an end, 2013 i'm guessing off the top of my head... and with that, as those years went by since Us...well, I guess you disappeared along with it.

It's strange really, because our brutal end to our awkward but it was what it was, sweet
R e l a t i o n s h i p had us parting in the sad way that I somehow, now older than I was in my teenage days.. haunts me in still remembering you. Missing you, weirdly. Thinking about how much you meant to me, remembering how I wanted us to exchange contacts and idk, date IRL but like it didn't even happen? Wtf we were two kids with the same crush on eachother, what haha.

I guess what i'm trying to say is, I wonder how you're doing. I wonder if you still remember me or have forgotten who I ever was to you. Yeah I met others after you, shared romance with too, but for some odd reason... you still bother to creep into my mind as if "what we had" has more meaning to me than the "actual relationship" I got out of Hatena (lmao offense to my ex? yikes haha)

Whether you were genuine about who you were, or you made up a character to me through the crazy world of Hatena Chatrooms... I remember your personality at best and well, the drawings you made, the drawings you even created of us when we shared such strong feelings towards eachother then.

Our teenage breakup was rough hahaha, I cringe at the way it was, but it makes me smile even more knowing that I had the chance to meet you by accident when you could of met any other fourteen/fifteen/sixteen/seventeen (heck idr how old we were meeting haha) girl, and you had met me, had liked me, had "dated" me, and shared the memories that meant the world to me.

If there was a chance to connect with you again, I would. 

Is it bad that I still miss you despite the years that have passed, for me to not even think about you like it feels wrong to even do so?

Maybe some day our paths will cross again, but if not? I hope you're doing well.

Here's to you XX ♡